“I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of nonfeeling, or stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out. To learn and think: to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.”
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It feels good to write again and share it on my blog. But it feels even better knowing I have something new and exciting to share about my life. For a while, I've been struggling to understand the nature of my path in terms of career, passion, and definitive personalization. I felt lost and confused, and generally impatient with my growth to success. Well, now 3 weeks later, and I am coming back to share recent changes in my life that have helped answered those personal questions. And I must say, I've never been more excited to announce my own growth and simple successes as I have been recently.
First off, I've accepted my full-time position at Thrillist Media Group as Social Media Coordinator for Supercall about three weeks ago. I've always been a huge fan of Thrillist so to even be working at the company is a proud acceptance in itself. But what's even more amazing is that I get to work on a new project launched just a month ago called Supercall, a brand specifically catered to the spirits and alcohol industry. I'm in charge of handling the social media platforms for the brand in terms of content, posting, analytics, etc. Basically, what I was already doing for my blog but at a bigger scale and a much more professional level. Within just the past three weeks that I've started here, I've learned so much more about social media beyond my previous knowledge. I already had a strong passion for it as an important aspect for businesses and the fact that I get to learn even more about it each day makes me feel more validated in the career path I've found myself in. Social media became second nature to me when I started to build my blog more seriously but now I can see how I've grown to really have a passion for it as a career and future business endeavors. I can finally say this is where I belong in terms of a career and it took about 2 years for me to get here but it has made this feel much more satisfying and rewarding. Just knowing that everyday I get to go into work knowing that I am valued for the skills I have spent years honing makes me proud of myself for finally finding where I belong and figuring out one aspect of #adulting. It's finally the start to a bigger future I've been patiently, painfully, looking for.
When you accept one change, you realize that it becomes easier to accept other changes as part of the process. It's like shedding one layer of your old self to reveal a little bit of new, but once you see that bright glimpse you begin to peel more and more parts of your older self to start an entirely fresh chapter. With a new job comes adjustments to balancing to a new flow. Within the past three weeks, I've had a whirlwind of changes to get used to (new job, new roommates, new dance team), but it made me realize what really was important to take with me in this new beginning. It meant recognizing a better balance to fit the life I was entering and facing the sharper contrast between what I really needed and what was there simply as a figment of a sentimental past. I began answering questions of myself and who I wanted to be going forward that used to be shoved under a rug because I wasn't ready to deal with the facts in the past. But amidst new light, or lumiere, comes a more definitive sense of self and greater understanding of my inner preservation, and it was a further push to accepting a personal happiness--the bit of driving force in feeling validated in the direction I'm taking.
A friend said to me, "I can't wait to see who you become next because new change means new you." And I can't agree with her more. Excited to share the "new me".
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